Friday, November 20, 2015

Beautiful Story

 *Eating Disorder/Depression & Anxiety/Acid Reflux*
By: Brook Lopez (this encouraged me so much, my it bless you also!)
"Ok, so it’s no joke about PPD being real. Its real and it is not a sin. So so many mommas hide in the woodwork, in their homes, feeling ashamed, keeping this painful part of mommy hood hidden. Self preservation against the eyes, ears and judgments of others. My heart aches to reach out to those mommas, because I was one of them. A lot of you know my story and my extreme struggle with depression, but today I’ve been weepy in reflecting back on those frightening days and how thankful I am that I found a way out. To this day, I am still confident that Plexus saved my life. This is lengthy but if you’ve read this far, please just keep reading. Its a very personal part of my life I’m going to share in hopes that it will help even one person.
In this wonderful period of my life I can’t help but remember that dark helpless time where I was gripped by severe depression and anxiety that destroyed my mind and destroyed the person was. Remembering the days that I would call my own momma, crying hysterically saying “I don’t know how to do this. I don’t want to do this anymore.” Calling her 10 times a day because I couldn’t handle the baby screaming, I didn’t know what to do, I felt like I was doing everything wrong. I felt like I was trying to keep my head above water and take the best care of my little girl that I could but was physically suffocated by my new life, at times like I was choking just trying to breathe. I was gripped by guilt. The guilt was UNBELIEVABLE. The guilt of feeling like my problem was “spiritual”. The guilt of being such a disaster. The guilt that my body was depleted of energy to care about anything other than my baby’s survival. Momma guilt surrounded me. I loved my baby with all my being, I wanted to be everything she would ever need. But I would collapse on the floor crying in agony at the pains that would fill my stomach because of stress, I would cry when the clumps of hair were falling from my hairline, the days my sweet husband would walk through the door after work find me laying in the bathroom floor after puking my anxiety out, debilitated by the pain of the acid reflux cause by the constant throwing up I did. He would find me sobbing, unable to speak. That is the face of depression, that is the result of extreme anxiety.
All of those things triggered the eating disorder that was slowly killing me. My mind was controlled by it. I was frantic because I felt like my mind had completely taken over the strong person I used to be, and I didn’t know how to believe truth. It was so scary. I couldn’t function. I couldn’t seem to help myself, even after being told by 2 doctors — Primary and a psychologist specializing in eating disorders— that my blood-work was so bad that I could be dead before the next year if I didn’t change. The one more throw up, could be what stopped my heart and my husband would come home to find me unresponsive in the floor. Want to know my response? Here is the response of the face of depression, when my own momma asked me why that couldn’t bring me to change. I mean I was told to my face that I was basically killing myself. Depressions response? “I don’t know that I care. Frankly I don’t have the effort left anymore to fix it. I only have the energy left in my body to scrape by every single day.” Yes, you read that right. I had a three month old, am amazing husband, a secure life, yet…I said those things to my terrified mothers face. The psychologist wanted to put me on two antidepressants…I just could bring myself to do it. So she wanted to admit me to an intensive eating disorder psychiatric facility for a 3 week program, to start recovery. I couldn’t do it. I just couldn’t. But there was no hope for me otherwise because my body’s ounce of energy was being used for survival, my mind was overriding my will to live.
Tears run down my face when I remember that dispare. The hopelessness.
I know this is deep, and that was a rough read. I know it may sound dramatic, but trust me. That is the face of my postpartum depression. Yet here I am. Why?
I’ve said plexus is changing my life, but back then, Plexus saved my life. Now I understand why. My blood sugar was always low because of the throwing up, my gut was ruined from 2 years of the agony I put it through. I was right, I didn’t physically or emotionally have the energy to fix myself because of those things.
I started taking Slim and in just three days my husband came home to me actually cooking dinner and greeting him with a smile. He just stood there, then he said, “Wow. I feel like I’m starting to get you back”. Tears flowed down our faces. You know what? I had the energy to start caring for me. To start helping my body heal. To start being able to think clearly and give my mind truth.
Let me tell you why. Slim targets blood sugar; a leading culprit in cravings (I always craved sweet things because I threw up so often), binge eating (which I often did because of the bulimia), low energy (having a newborn AND my body wasn’t being fed, so of course I was always on empty). It started to naturally regulate my blood sugar; I felt alive again.
Of course the Probiotic and Bio Cleanse started to heal my gut. Including the acid reflux, which triggered even more vomiting, clearing out the yeast overgrowth allow what little bit I was learning to eat again, those nutrients and vitamins I was so depleted in, to absorb quickly into my system.
Being on this side of things, understanding better how the Accelerator helped, makes me cry. It acts as a natural mood stabilizer. What? Yeah. The Yerba Mate and Green Tea Leaf are used in many cultures as an organic stimulant to relieve mental tiredness. A natural anti-depressant? I was terrified I would eventually have no choice but to take and possibly be addicted to anti-depressant medications the rest of my life. Terrified. I truly believe this is what kept me from that, this was the little thing, unbeknownst to me that helped me regain control of my mind.
Has it CURED anything? No. We are human, we will always have struggles, but it has made me able to not be overcome by it any longer. And even now, this time around in the 2nd postpartum of my life, I feel like a totally different momma.
The face you see in these pictures today, with two babies, is the face of recovery. Its the face of a momma who will always be a believer in how the natural things around us, that God has placed on this earth, can be such a life changer. I have daily struggles just as any momma, but I’m so thankful to have something helping my body and mind be as God intended it. THAT is why it is worth it to me, THAT is why I can’t help but share it.
There it is in a nut shell! This is not a gimmick or scam, its the real deal causing healthy healing for people like me I'm so thankful, so blessed!

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Build Your Health

Do you or someone you know suffer from:

It's time to take action... it's time to feel better... it's time to start your Plexus journey to better health!! Are you ready??

Are you Thriving?

Plexus is an all natural AMAZING product that I'm sure you'd love if you tried it!!! I'm so excited about what it's doing for all my friends that have taken the leap to try it!!! I just ordered mine and can't wait to see what it does for me!! I'll keep you posted!! Until then... who wants to take the leap with me and get started themselves?? I would love to have others join me in my journey and share stories together!! Feel free to e-mail me or leave a message on this post!

I so badly want to be vibrant and alive and living life to the fullest!!! I want to THRIVE not just survive. I hate feeling run down, depressed, and lacking in energy. I want to be excited, active, and happy! Who wouldn't??

I love to help people so much!! I've always wanted to be a health coach or fitness instructor... now I'm living my dream... sharing with others how they can gain better health! Will you be next?? Check it out!!! Go Here to learn more!!

Friday, September 4, 2015

Herbal immune boost tea

I'm a tea drinker!! Love it! Especially making it myself and knowing exactly what's in it! It makes me happy to sit down to a nice warm cup of tea and read a good book! Since fall is coming and tea is (so to speak) is 'season', plus the cold and flu season is coming what could be better then an immune boosting tea?? ;-) So here ya go, one of my favorites! ;-)

Immune boost tea:
1 1/2 cups red raspberry leaf
1/2 cup alfalfa leaf
1/2 cup nettle leaf
1/2 cup peppermint leaf
1/8 cup yarrow flower
1/8 cup Lemon grass

Mix and store!
 Use 1 teaspoon-1 tablespoon per cup of water depending on how stronge you like your tea to be! Brew as normal and strain off the herbs!

Other tasty herbs you could add: red clover, rose hips, lavender, chamomile, spearmint...

Use dried herbs so the tea will store. 

Life these days!!

Hello beautiful blog readers out there!! I miss you! How has the blogging world be lately?? Have I missed much? Hmm what kind of question is that huh?? There is always new wonderful bloggy things going on!!

I have been so busy with my 3 beautiful little girls lately that blogging has thus fallen off my list of top to do's... But alas I do miss you!! 

Life is busy and full!! Do I have advice on raising toddlers? Do I know how to keep the littles busy and occupied? Have I learned how to be the best mom? Um well I am definitely learning a lot and do have some advice but I am no where near perfect and a typical day has me running around fixing everything in my path but getting nothing done! I'm just like you... I get stressed, I get tired, I get busy! But life is good and full and fun!! I have some fun ideas for posts coming up on health, parenting, and homeschool!! I will try and start posting about once a week so keep watching for posts!! Possible giveaway coming up too!!! :-)

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Introducing... and a winner!

Our 'Beautiful Baby' Cristiana Grace was born on July 2, at 1:34 am! She weight 8 lbs 2 oz. She is such a sweet darling baby who is always laughing and smiling already! She loves to be cuddled, and to smile at her sisters!! The perfect addition to our family! We are in love!!! <3

Which brings me to say we have a winner for the Baby Guessing Contest! :-) Melody you are the winner!! Please e-mail me at

Thank you to those who entered!! :-)

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Redeeming Childbirth Giveaway

Now for another fun giveaway!! :-)

Redeeming Childbirth has been such an encouragement and blessing to me! It contains a message in it that isn't talked about much. I think this message needs to be spread. Right now my copy of this book is in the hands of my sister! And I received this book as a gift from a sister in Christ! I have even mentioned to my husband that I would like to give this book to the new mothers at baby showers!

This book is about giving God complete control over your heart, soul, and mind! Through pain in morning sickness or contractions! Learning to lean on Him in all the hard times as well as the good! It's so beautifully written it'll have you in tears at times!

Angie Tolpin has kindly offered to giveaway a signed copy of Redeeming Childbirth to one of my lovely readers!! Thank you Angie! :D

Enter using the rafflecopter form below:


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